Is it the 11th of November yet? I am so sick of Exams... i only have 2 to go, But i'm so over them. I'm over studying and I'm over school... I still don't know what I want to do.

OMG guess what I just found out!!!! I'm a bit behind, but meh. Tarja got kicked out of Nightwish! Like omg. But after reading the letter to her it makes sense. If you haven't seen it here it is http://www.nightwish.com/english/lettertotarjaen.html

On other notes. I really like Opeth's new album, its really good, and its different. Its good to see bands experiment, adds excitment and change.

My computer is seriously shitting me.. I have this fire wall blocking everything... like MSN and p2p people programs and I can't find the bloody thing to turn it off... grrrr... damn technology!!!!

Oh wow don't I feel bad. I haven't been here for... Ever!

Well not much to write about. Nothing is new. But I written some stuff since my absence... Oh that reminds me, I have got my bass Guitar and started leasons!  Their going well and I just love my bass!!!!

Anyways much love

<3

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My sir, my vow

Sir do you not remember my words,
That time of the red sky
How I vowed to my heart
The words you promised to

Sir I vowed I will never be owned
No human will have procession over me
I am not an object of a sirs desiring eye
I belong to my body and soul
No command shall reach my ears

Now I have to go through this
Breaking my vow to my heart
And sir you are breaking your promise
I thought you understood
Silence me another way
Do not lie to my ears

I walk the earth
A bruised soul
Broken flesh
All to hold my heart
To behold my own identity
Not to be seen just as his lady
His sheath, his slave, his procession

Sir how could I have brought this upon myself?
You promised my words
My eyes were wiped by your figure tips
I was to be seen
the lady of your heart
I am in stead in a black hole

You made me feel I have failed you Sir
If so oh how I am sorry
It is my weakness,
my tongue has no control
My words are chosen carelessly
But it was my heart that made the end clear

All I ask of you
Is to forgive me
To save me from the man with the steel hand
With words that prick
His love can not control me

Sir you and I can not hide
Our love will fins its way
Please do not wait until I no longer feel
For each day I am silently breaking your touch is the only remedy
So please follow my whispers
The whispers I send you in the wind
‘rescue me’

I love this one. I don't know why but i just do...

Misleading

I thought he loved me
But I am obtuse,
I wished
Only in my heart
& in my head it came true

Years go by
And still I wonder, why?

[CHORUS]
This pain hurts just so much
My nights still sleepless
My dignity still un-restored
Long walks seem endless

I feel I am one of those
Beside the road breathless
Feeling nothing
Seeing all
Hearing everything

I am waiting
But for what?
I am still envy
This place no longer speaks to me

[CHORUS]

Still I await
Every moment I hold my breath
Hope is miss leading
The steps aren't his
The noise isn't him
He isn't coming back

I left with him
my mind, spirit and soul
They deserted me
Just like he did

[CHORUS]

When will I breathe?
Will I breathe?
He didn't
Will I end up like that?
Will I be left hollow inside?
Time tells a tale
One that it hides from me
[whispering ~ Tick-tock~ as last two lines are sung]

[keeps whispering~ time passes by until the end~ ]

Hmmm nothing interesting going on. Boring, boring, boring....

No wait i went to the city the other day (Sydney) and went to the aquarium and i went shopping, And very soon i am getting my bass.

NCIS is one i love that show so much. Its the best. Abby (Pauley Perrette) rocks my world. She is my Idol :D

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The roads are pulling me
Two different ways I can not go
Ho do I choose from what I know nothing?
The flowers may tempt me
The walls may keep screaming
But I still feel as if I am in transit

Love may create blindness
But I feel not love
People may keep laughing
But I refuse to let it rain
Keep teasing me with path ways
Knowing my undeceive ways
I will not let the rain clouds purvey

Keep watching
I want to see the face
When I become that doubted
Jumping their hurdle, their trick
Not being the entertainment of their amusement

Friends may be friends
Enemies are enemies
But one can not be both
Patronizing me may be their crime
For I will not bleed
I will not be a leaf in autumn
For I will follow the road I create

I was inspired by a book. ;)

Pining love forbidden

You try to pretend I mean nothing
You try to brush me off
But I will keep fighting
I will keep coming back
Falling into your arms
Knowing you can not resist me

{chorus}
Why wont you see?
That I am here needing you
Why can't you just accept it?
Accept me
Accept us
Accept that we are meant to be

When our lips touch
nothing remains
All our fears spill away
Our wanting drives us insane
our desire
our passion
you and i know this is right

Your passion to run
Can no longer be felt
our Knowledge of this being wrong
floods from out thoughts
our confusion is no longer existent

but still
{chorus}

Your stronger than me,
My desire makes me weak

My heart pines
Your face, your beauty
It haunts my sleep
It makes me weak
But still you make me complete

It makes me scream
{chorus} x 2

Dreams come true
(fades out x3 sounds less her each time until silent)